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omggg im blogging! settled down in Victoria already.. =) so fun! anyway, i'll start from orientation, then maybe CT and lessons, then BBQ!! =D.

First day at VJ was totally foreign, didnt really talk to anyone, nobody was high, everyone did stuff unwillingly, and the bus rides were super tiring! I was in IV5! a.k.a iTouch from Ivanhoe, there was totally close-to-zero interaction within the group from what i can see. We didnt really know our OGLs as well. And we learnt a LOT of cheers and think two mass dances. in a day. couldnt absorb.. was kinda burnt out at the end.

Ah i realise if i keep going on for the next 4 days i dont think i'll be able to sleep.
So at the end everyone became much more bonded and closer together and i made a lot of new friends! so cool! and my OGLs are COOL to the max haha! so fun. iTouch dinner rocks! especially at sky garden.. hide and seek lol! and the PES craze. i love my sub-OG! haha hope I wasnt too quiet or anything xD

Class is damn HIGH. especially with zi-high-ers like veronica around. although i really really dont think i always laugh along with them because i dont find anything funny. and jj's attempts to make people laugh or something doesnt really work on me -.- and vj has twins and triplets lol!. COOL!. anyway i fast forward to bbq yesterday la.

Eric and I stoned at canteen for damn long to wait for Jean, and partly because we didnt feel like going to parkway. The others went to get the OGL presents and we started to write all the thank you letters once they were back. and a prank one for weijian lol. anyway we walked to ecp where we ate like one plate of bee hoon only?! and started playing all sorts of dumb stuff, mainly the prank. haha, anyway it was damn fun going around and watching people do truth or dare forfeits and everything. Hope we can get together again some time! =)

And i realise i miss a lot of my friends. from cat high and cf. These two days were SUPER COOL. saw rebecca and celestine at j8 and I was like omg long time no see and really it was nice to see them again. and bryan also! kenneth tan and terence szeto lol. meeting everyone even though we were from different schools is especially heartwarming. ehh and IM GLAD I TOOK THE BUS AFTER OG BBQ TODAY. bumped into terence and sylvia going home after their OG dinner at AMK mrt station. i was like OMG and again it was really nice to see them again, although i felt a bit awkward. xD Okay terence wasnt really going home, but he stated that he lives in yishun when his og asked where he lived in. lol wth. yup. and when terence and sylvia left on 812 ( terence's hands were over her shoulders la dont think i never see ) jiamin and zijin arrived at interchange after HC Campfire!! wah so COOL!  i decided that talking to them would be more interesting than taking bus home so i walked with them until we reached a fork and we zao-ed to our respective homes. yay haha so nice to see everyone! i suddenly miss a lot of people. ):

today's valentines' day! happy valentines'! for those who dont have a valentine, happy friendship day! i think im stoning at home today la i i still have piano lesson at 4. -.- what a great way to spend 14 feb.

nevermind! i can live with it =D
Lots of homework now! i will go and play gta4 first
if you are free today, give me a call. i need to escape the confines of my home.

.. most depressing day of the holidays. Didnt get in. So what if you had the cut off mark, SO WHAT. -.- thought today see the school can finally stay at home and celebrate by playing. In the end, had to compile and print so much stuff for 4 hours with a heavy heart and change all of the plans to include trips down to hand in appeal form. Thats my last chance already. If I dont get word of anything tomorrow evening, ... i shudder to think. Maybe i'll just break down and die or something. Posting is screwed. About 90% of the people i know didnt get into their choice JC even though their score was the cut-off mark or lower. whatthehell?!
Sian. totally zz. What i've aimed for the past two years, just went down the drain. 
I still want to thank everyone though, for everything they've done to encourage me and all. Greatly appreciate it... In the end, i've failed. failed everybody who had such high hopes for me T_T
less than 24 hours to the veiling of that last ray of hope. hope it shines through..
wah this is even more nervous than receiving results. sigh. really feel kinda emo today. going to hc was kinda torturing too. have to bear with the pain of seeing so many people wearing that same uniform which I had longed, but will never, get to put on. it was a perfect wish shattered so cruelly. i hate it when disappointment becomes such a routine thing in my life, especially during major events. Something always doesnt go my way, every time.

Think today will be the last time im seeing hc in maybe a year or two.  


 

Pretty soon it will be midnight, and that marks a happy WEDNESDAY.
For one, most shops will resume business again =) and maybe i will cut my hair tomorrow. or perhaps leave it thurs or fri.
For 'two', it brings us closer to 30th, posting results. feel like knowing now already.
Although I might say I prefer to be alone at home when i 'bury' myself in the PS3 (for a few hours, that is) , I feel the need to at least step out of the house. Going to L4D tomorrow =) haha dont worry i'll stop gaming once school(again, no idea which school) starts. no, i will cease the number of times i play, more like.
Didnt visit anywhere today, woke up at 11pm or so and watched some jacky wu show which was super funny. haha heard that he will 踏出演艺圈 in june, according to my mum.. If so, whats going to happen about guess? and not just that, it will be a super great loss for the whole taiwan entertainment business. gg. I sort of played dmc4 while parents went to fetch my brothers home from relatives' house. Apparently they stayed overnight.
And, as usual my father comes back all fed up and starts to vent his anger on me. nah, okay it doesnt happen all the time. But yeah, this is what happens when you have two immature brothers (zz). that being said, i slept again and woke up in the afternoon after hearing the phone ring. For some reason when i picked up the phone the whole life in my leg suddenly vanished and i sort of knelt down hard on the floor and i sprained my toe. and like, my brother was beside me and he didnt even ask if I was okay or what, he just went in and told my father, AND leaving me to answer the phone and simultaneously suppress the pain. i cant even talk. Actually I didnt know if my father was in the room so when he was asked for I said I didnt know, because the pain was getting the better of me. -.- cant believe i have such a brother. wont even help to answer the call. i envy people whose siblings are more mature.
Okay i dont know how people can blog very long but I think I have nothing much to blog about already haha. maybe its because i never upload pics.
Speaking of pictures, I want my own digital camera zzz. Requested it for ages but havent buy. Its always my parents holding the one and only camera whenever we go out and they always need to take pictures, and i dont really agree with their shots sometimes. i cant even capture the ones i want. grr. 
i shall stop at 12am. which is 1 more min later. and happy birthday again warren =)
 

拜年-ning started out fun =D met a lot of relatives whom i dont get to see often. Of course, there was the usual bombarding of questions -.- mainly about my height and o level results. Seriously, it gets tiring after a while lol. Yes, many were mistaken that I have already completed NS again zz. For some reason, 'do you have a girlfriend' was quite a common question this year as well. Despite having answered a truthful NO, some relatives still did not believe me. T_T want to make me happy a bit only lol, can tell =)  
 
Went to somewhere else and stoned there until the little nyonya thing showed. I was totally not interested and decided to go out the front door and sleep by the corridor, since all the bedrooms were locked. was SUPER GLAD parents did not want to finish the show.. travelled all the way to admiralty and visited someone else again before going home. tiring, but 'quite' fun. and got 大丰收 also haha.

The BAD thing about today is a lot of shops are closed. couldnt even get a proper, decent meal in the evening. time was running short so we skipped dinner and my parents asked me to eat all those snacks people always place on the table. how will that suffice as a proper meal?! -.-

omg 3 days left. going to l4d tomorrow. and i think i should cut my hair before school starts. haha it feels so weird to say this when i dont even know which school i will be in.. bye for now =)

( Just a quiz )
 
CNY mood's setting in, although im not really catching it.
Went over to relative's house to lao yu sheng, haha at least its still quite nice to see people again. I was asked if I had already completed NS lol, and I was totally WHATTT. Yes, Im quite tall (everyone keeps commenting on that) but that doesnt mean im older -.- and according to someone i have a 'baby' face. whatever. Speaking of age, I only imagined myself being 15/16. I dont know what will happen if i reach 17. probably cry out or start to have weird ideas that im old. (<personal view, nothing against people who are alr 17 or older)

AT LEAST I HAVENT RECEIVED MY NS LETTER YET =D makes me feel younger. and more carefree. =D thats going to change in april. 16.5 years old. -.-  Anyway today i woke up at 4+ in the afternoon!!! T_T was having weird dreams about someone lol. guess i'll sleep the whole of today away.one less day until 30th. 
wish time would speed up.

okay its like nearing 4am. Im dying for air con D: haha ciao.

I just finished MGS4 and suddenly i feel sad. its such a great game.. and a great series.  i still remember the time i saw my uncle playing MGS1 on PS1. then i was like so scared of the alerts. then now after mgs2 3 and finally 4, the series reaches its conclusion. T_T I've never felt more connected with a videogame character lol. and with the revisiting of shadow moses nine years after MGS1, and all the flashbacks, it really brings back a lot of memories. i know its kinda dumb to say this about a video game but oh well. not many people i know play the metal gear solid series (like zelda),  im like totally sian. as in really follow throughout the four games... haha. i hope another mgs comes out, but then again maybe its not such a good idea. hideo kojima totally killed off a lot of characters. naomi,vamp,ocelot,big boss,zero,sigint,para-medic, .. and so on.

i think i will never play a better game/series. (this is no understatement).

8 more days to posting results. I realised what we've all been doing these few months is wait. wait for o levels wait for o level results wait for posting results. -.- got a lot of time to kill huh.

nothing much to post about today, went out to eat fish and co. (omg). and played l4d with three other friends. haha.
i hope 30th comes faster. T_T

Like, first post after release of results?
Shall start from results day then. 12th jan '09.

I admit I had a good night's sleep (: no sense of foreboding or whatever. (I even played twilight princess that morning D:)
Admittedly, like many of us, I couldnt wait until like 12.30pm before I went out. I mean, I'll keep pacing around the living room even if i stayed indoors, might as well get out -.- I had this weird feeling when I was locking the door, like.. 'will I come back and open this door happily or what.' yea that sort of thing.

Tension rose, many of us stayed in the canteen waiting for 2pm, while the names of the 10,9,8,7 A1s people were put up on some noticeboard in front of the GO, where a seething mass of students and parents were. There wasnt a longer hour in my life. 1-2pm. 12/01/09.
The usuals began, breakdown of school performance and all. Bio had like 90+% distinction lol. jeff goh qiang2. OHYA I TOTALLY FORGOT. I broke my specs on the way to school can you believe it?! -.- i was like straining here and there throughout the whole thing. ya, so I went up to the table and wongie asked me to sign the namelist, and so I did, couldnt see results lol. Took them back to the floor and sort of prepared myself before opening it. The first subject was English, and boy was I stunned when i saw A1. I mean, i never even had a b3 before! thats like a 3 grade JUMP>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>. Then I saw my other results. Humanities B3! and boy was I stunned when i saw B3. I mean, i had all A1s during Sec 4. Why now? that was like a 2 grade DROP.
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And i had A2 for chem and higher chinese, rest A1. L1R5:7! I got what I wished for. Satisfied, but with a little twinge of regret at my chem and humanities. nevermind, went around congratulating and consoling people i guess, surprisingly I didnt see any one cry. that was a good sign. I thought people would have broken down. T_T Went home after that, when i reached the door i was like woah. At least i didnt come back all sulky. And just to tell the people who werent too happy, dont mull over the past alr (which they shouldnt be doing by this time), chiong A levels lol.

Went RJ and HC for open house, though HC's isnt really an official one. to add on, I went without specs again lol.

Okay gathering. It was at Harrison's house, some Hillside at Bukit Timah. BBQ all the way, played cheat, didnt play bridge cos i dont know how to. I only know two poker card games. Cheat and Blackjack. GG. But hey IM PROUD OF IT. although i guess it would mean less socialising. Night fell. Some of us went to the playground beside the poolside to play Blind Mice but after 1 round we were chased off by security guards. zzz dont like condos, so restricted. hung around and went around via 852. hope i'll be taking more of this bus in feb..
While im at it, here are my choices.  In order of submission:  HC / RJ / VJ / NJ / AC / TJ Didnt know choosing would be such a chore (and a bore). Had to go back to school to seek advice before I decided.

anyway i received a ps3 three days ago! *after much persuasion.
current games are DMC4 and MGS4 (Metal Gear Solid 4 =DDDD)
MGS is the best series ever in the history of video gaming, in my opinion.
Halo comes 2nd maybe.
anyway MGS4 is FREAKING GOOD. survived on AV cable until today. Component cable. HD. Super cool.
Wireless controller. Internet's free. Blu-ray. woah. i kinda left my DMC4 aside for a while, now at mission 3 -.-
AND I REALISED I HAVENT BEEN PLAYING ZELDA. will do soon.
I like the way bosses shout SNAKKKKKEEEEEE! it packs a punch. make you all pumped up. adrenaline rush. hiong.
haha, yea im at Raging Raven now, at the end of Act 3. going back to shadow moses soon omgomg.
for non-gamers or for those who are not familiar with the series I apologise. I seem to be droning on too much.

Ok, im waiting for 1pm. BB (Beauty and the Beast) (Bye Bush).

Tomorrow. A little less than 20 hours away. Dont know what to say, just that i hope im prepared for the worst.
Yes I know everyone says that theres no point worrying, true.
So what i think is we should try to learn how to deal with it after we know our results rather than to harp on the number thats going to appear on the cert.  
then again.. its all probably NATO   (for those who do not know.. yes it stands for "No Action Talk Only") dont know when it popped out but yea.
I predict.. a downpour of tears tomorrow.. no idea if they will be tears of joy or despair though.
yes the grand finale huh.

good luck to everyone.

hope the next post is a happy one =)

back from chalet..
not really into posting these days but i'll try a short one. I realise if i drag what i want to blog about everything goes poof. Kinda like now..
Winding the clock back a few days. Thinking of what happened then.. Err... Ohya, Countdown.

Countdown was spent at Leonard's house. Lugged laptop and Wii over to play.. thank god the PS2 was at his house. Otherwise i would have collapsed. lol I seem to realise Im not injecting some sort of heart or feeling into writing this. Actually I am, but i guess its because of the lack of punctuation(as in ! and !! and =D etc.)  Compare.


<<< Countdown was spent at Leonard's house! Lugged laptop and Wii over to play (:  thank god the PS2 was at his house =D Otherwise i would have collapsed ><  lol I seem to realise Im not injecting some sort of heart or feeling into writing this): Actually I am! but i guess its because of the lack of punctuation o.0 >>>

Then again, I think its excessive.

ANYWAY. Reached there after noon, if i remember correctly. Stoned around in his room, playing and the others started to arrive. Had a little game of basketball at the nearby court as well. What else.lol haha nothing much la actually. Countdown was spent playing com. So we just played and slept and ate breakfast and went home the next day (:

Next is.. oh, hardcore labour day.

Totally forgot the date think it was 2nd jan. Zikai called earlier to ask if I wanted to go and 'carry stuff' or to quote, '搬东西'. 1hr  $7. wth totally worth it. Turns out it was to clear up stuff left after Countdown at Marina. We gathered at City Hall and used the CityLink to walk there. Ok.. so there was this girl, quite attractive i guess? but thats out of the point. Recall the barricades used for crowd control or for designated queuing areas? yea there were about 150 of them (plastic) spread out over the whole stands. took breaks at intervals and finally got them all down to the ground floor and banished them into a dark place under the stairs where they rightfully belong. We werent supposed to deal with the metal ones, again thank god. They were managed by other workers with all sorts of tools and equipment to help them with it. Cool huh. Well you cant expect a walk in the park with rates at $7/hr. Next job was peeling some tape off small banners with our fingers?! Like when you use tape and after a while theres some sticky stuff that stays, yea we had to remove them. Correction, some of us. Others went somewhere else. Only yb, yy and I were there hiong-ing the 'sticky' situation. Took forever to get them out. With some of us disappearing to unknown locations for other tasks, those who stayed had to carry full 1.5l bottles out onto some truck, with a wet floor and all. Then it was some left-there-for-dont-know-how-long syrup of some sort. There were roughly a 100 or more of them there as well. Loaded them onto some weird wagon like thing and pushed them off to the nearby big trash container and started playing basketball, by throwing the stuff into the metal container. After that we slacked and waited for the rest to come back and Zikai and I went to Bishan because I wanted to cut my hair and we had dinner and I was really tired so I went home and I think I slept. The rest was a blur.


5th jan.
Supposed to go chalet at 1430 hrs but Caleb asked me to return to school to walk around, and so I did. Sec 1s were having orientation and it feels kinda weird to see others going through the same phase that we did a few years back. Didnt really see a lot of people, but saw quite a few teachers, like mr heng, angie wong, tjh, mr thomas, yu lin! lololol. haha quite fun. We tried to stalk ms wong but for some reason she disappeared somehow. Anyway, we walked to j8 (caleb, cheung and kenneth tan) and they went to ajisen ramen (is this how you spell it?) to eat. I tailed along, but did not order, even though I had a free glass of water o.o. Xy came along and i went back to prepare to meet Cliff, Louis and mh and jw for chalet.  
I only took my laptop and some clean clothes and set off with $40. only to pay $20 for the chalet. zz. We took a bus there. The rest of the day was mostly spent stoning inside but we went out to play arcade, eat and all the usuals at Downtown East. Realised there were still a lot of people of our age there. And like every chalet consists of girls, but not ours. sian. lol! eh true lor dont laugh -,-. moving on, night fell and we stayed inside the room and played and played and played and finally slept and then we had breakfast. I slept at around 8am and woke up at 2pm... -.- Started playing again and went out to eat again and walked around the place being jealous. I seriously need more girls in my life lol. i mean it in a 'social-circle' way. It was in the night when I stumbled across a very good game on psp called 'Dissidia FInal Fantasy'. Was kinda quick in learning and had more or less the hang of it within an hour or so, played the game for the rest of the night and slept again. As you can see we had no bbq and all. Save money (: checked out at 10.30 came back home slept. and here I am blogging. Friday theres music and 12th jan is results. Still 'busy' huh, busy worrying.

Resolutions.

1. Improve social relations. Seriously. talk more. overcome the cannot-be-yourself-in-front-of-girls problem. have more friends. go out more. dont stay at home hog games. jiayou.

2. I wont say results are everything but i hope to do well in jc (if i can make it in) as well.

3. Learn my piano and future violin properly, constantly upgrade myself, have fun at the same time.

There are a lot more that i want to list but i guess these are the few main ones for now. maybe they'll change once i get results.
On a side note i went to get the edusave award thingy on saturday $300 FREEE!. had a cheque. cool.

I think i've posted enough.. finally huh for people who frequent my livejournal, i know there are some, not sure if there are a lot.
Sleep. Bye!
 

my 'today' is a few days later. wouldnt hurt to wait a few more hours.

shall blog later today (:

Just a few interesting things that happened in taiwan.

1. I slept through a 5. something earthquake.
2. Met Celestine and Issac over there
3. Entered VIP Lounge for the first time because we had to take the next flight
4. The next flight got DELAYED AGAIN. for about an hour

bye singapore.
and whoever cares.
my plane may just crash. haha
back next friday T_T

ITS DECEMBER!!!!!  = nearer to getting results.
I cant believe i stayed at home the whole day playing without brekafast or lunch. -.-
Nothing to look forward to these days, no appointments, no gatherings, nothing. Its like floating in a void waiting for things to happen to you. You are thinking : get a job. I say 'what the hell am i capable of?'.
I guess I always have doubts about myself, dont even think can get into HCI. Sigh, this is different from PSLE. I dont even know HCI EXISTED during p6. Haha.

im like readin eening's blog now and im kinda fed up at the social circle part -.- (not at anyone, but ya) At least NY and HC have constant (assumed, from what i can deduce from everywhere) exposure to the opposite gender of the same age. Should just merge really. I mean look at me, 4 years and like the number of new friends (girls) I gained is like less than 5. What can possibly be worse than this?! Seriously speaking. I think i have great friends in Cat high but ya, small social circle. Typing this out kinda makes my blood boil. And yes everyone seems to know everyone else. Thats why a part of me rejects the idea of going to HCI (JC). Like everyday everyone goes to KAP, coro, opposite, wherever and meet up and chat and whatever and socialise while im like going home everyday to study for these past two years after school and i dont even have time to go out. seriously, fed ( you can see this as f-ed or fed, up to you)  up. even if i get in eventually it feels odd because everyone knows everyone. Believe it when I say KNOW. i should rephrase. Almost everyone knows everything ABOUT everyone. like what john said, whole level, specific classes,cca,friends,what BUS EVERYONE TAKES, and many more. wth? this is more than socialising. MUCH MORE.  then still got what IP activity. More opportunities to know each other better. wth. then we'll be like crying over our results when this is going on. zz. now msn also like dead. you get the point la i dont want to continue already. I dont think i'll be going out with any girl this holiday, and maybe the next, and the next, and the next. There. Laugh. HAWHAHW. . bye.

i should get a job. but what?

I.need.to.do.well.for.higher.chinese. last week! .. tired already, still need to face results next january.
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and seriously i need to brush up on my social skills. i think im too cold towards people.

after seeing others' blogs about graduation i suddenly feel that i have not been really enjoying secondary school life. the friends and all were great.. really learnt a lot. but.. dont know how to say.. maybe its just me. i just dont know how to relax i guess, letting studies control me like some zombie. and now, im like some loser T_T

hope things change for the better.

1ST WEEK OF EXAMS OVER. OMG. 

-Chemistry was fine, easier than expected. As usual, few marks wasted. expecting a 73/80 or so. MCQ must score well.
-English was kinda sian. Hope scrape an A2, if i get A1 i convert to christian. Anyway ya, hope to do better for chinese (L1!)
-Add Math was freaking good. Quite happy, should be able to secure the A1 (1 down :D )
-Geography was OK too. If can maintain standard for Human Geog should be able to get A1, then at least i have something to use for humanities in case some weird essays choose to show up.
-E Math was good too. 1m lost only, i hope. Well this means min.mark for A1 will be raised ; i've been hearing from everywhere that its easy.

Next week killer papers all the way!
 
Physics P2 / History / Mathematics
hiong. wish me luck (:
please dont let my results 'die on' me, i dont want to consider a second jc. thanks.

In the name of the Father, & of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit amen.

P.S  I kinda like the CPE. friendly guy.

after hearing mr heng's A1 in lit i think it is still possible for me to get my A1 in English. I really really really really really really hope that i do so, that my situational makes up for my compo. please let me get it.... compre i hope i scrape a 40 or so.. PLEASE I BEG YOU, WHOEVER IS OUT THERE.

thank you. (:

Results are out, except maybe Physical Geography. Dead Depressing. Theres something wrong with my languages, although it SHOULD be something everyone should be scoring in. On a happier note, I improved (: one less point in my L1R5, which is so-so if you ask me. Lets start with the languages. dont laugh at my english zz.

English Language :  59/100  [C5] 
Higher Chinese : 68 / 100 [B3]
Elementary Mathematics : 85 / 100 [A1]
Additional Mathematics : 93 / 100 [A1]
Physics : 78 / 100 [A1]
Chemistry : 85 / 100 [A1]
History : 84 / 100 [A1]
Social Studies : 78 / 100 [A1]
Geography : ??

well, L1R5's 8.  Prelim 1 : 10, Prelim 2 : 9 and Prelim 3 : 8. And its ALL because of language. Well I guess Im going to get another movie-ticket (: I hope. Then holidays can start treating people already! Well at least I've attatined my FIRST EVER CHEMISTRY A1 =D This is my biggest achievement yet in this prelims. Will update Geography tomorrow.. have to go do Situational.. lol. Anyway Jay Chou's New Album "Capricon"! Heard the first song, not bad. go listen!